escapade

Goodbye Gift

2012-02-09T08:49:00.000-08:00

My Drawing faci made a farewell note for my class(awww, how sweet^^) and his message it's kinda funny and true..~
Funny thing was he called me a 'Skatergirl' when I'm not really one, I'm just learning it.
Secondly, he knows that I've been missing from school and asked me attend classes and be punctual.. HAHAHA~ Guess I must really change NOW ONWARDS!~

2012-02-09T06:14:00.000-08:00

And all those big mistakes I did and regret, I realised it was all due to the fact that I'm being a coward and all I did was escaping from it.

Lingering memories and flashbacks

2012-02-09T06:13:00.001-08:00

I really miss JAMS .
sigh~ all those memories, with you....
Breaks my heart when I see it's been emptied out..

2012-01-31T17:41:00.000-08:00

"You are actually not escaping but buying time to sort yourself out"

Who am I buying time from? Yes, I need to sort myself out. But in the meantime, I am trying to escape from my misery. Can you understand?

Confession #10

2012-01-30T09:57:00.000-08:00

My first kiss happened in the sea.
With the wrong guy.

#3

2012-01-30T09:56:00.000-08:00

Third letter for you.

You

2012-01-30T09:46:00.001-08:00

You, who never know I love you more than as a friend.
You, who never know I care so much about though I didn't show it all the time.
You, who I can laugh with no matter how stupid the reason is about.
You, who shared many genuine happy moments with. And of course, some precious ones.
You, who saved me.
You, whom I treasure.
You, who I adore.
You, who treats me nothing more than a friend...

But YOU, are the one I love.

Banana 1

2012-01-30T09:45:00.001-08:00

I appreciate that you're being a nice friend :)

#2

2012-01-29T07:46:00.001-08:00

2nd letter for you.

2012-01-29T06:57:00.000-08:00

I feel so lost now, without you.

1

2012-01-29T06:52:00.000-08:00

The only regret I have is that, I never tell you how much I really really love you.

#1

2012-01-28T07:13:00.000-08:00

Letter for You, #1

Beautiful

2012-01-28T07:12:00.000-08:00

Everyone feels insecure about themselves. How they look.
But to me, you are beautiful just the way you are, so stop hiding :)

ESCAPISM' PHOTOBOOTH

2012-01-23T07:23:00.000-08:00

My wish is to make my self-created quote to come into life. And I want to capture it perfectly into a photograph, a picture that will last forever. To prove my existence, to prove my faithfulness, to prove our friendship.

Is that too much to ask? Just one picture.

For my personal Photo Portfolio .

5AM

2012-01-23T07:17:00.000-08:00

Was woken up at 5am by Danish.
Got up and went to Yew Tee to borrow bicycle from Dalvin and met up with Ezzati, Danish and Azri.

Went cycling around BP area, Yew Tee, Sungei Kadut Industralize Park and yeah all around. Fun experience going down Phoenix Garden's steep, long slope and heading towards Bukit Batok.
Fun experience, though the lack of sleep.

Will do this again, undoubtly.
Anyone willing to lend me a bike? :D

true story, bro

2012-01-21T19:24:00.001-08:00

The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. The kindest hearts have felt the most pain.

2012-01-19T08:23:00.000-08:00

I love someone whom I am NOT supposed to.
And he don't love me back.
But I am still satidfied and happy, to know he's somewhere there, happy.

Fool. Tool. It rhymes

2012-01-19T08:19:00.001-08:00

It's no difference than being a tool/equipment, etc...
But then again, it revived me for a little while, making me feel special for that few hours, even if it's just living a dream. An act. A natural act. Not much difference from a staged play. We both know our roles. So what we did was, we played the role, well. Too well that we deceived strangers who looked at us. But they didn't know it is an act of 'relieving the moments'.. Moments when he had his glorious moment, and when I last felt special.

2012-01-17T07:02:00.004-08:00

Why can't I have the right to say things about Singapore be it positive or negative? Why must Arts cencorship in Singapore is so strict that it becomes a limitation to artist's creativity and freedom.

And today, I was introduced about this poet who criticized Singapore in his poem.

Alfian Sa'at. And this is his poem :

Singapore You Are Not My Country
(For Noora)

Singapore you are not my country.
Singapore you are not a country at all.
You are surprising Singapore, statistics-starved Singapore, soulful Singapore of tourist
brochures in Japanese and hourglass kebayas.
You protest, but without picketing, without rioting, without Catherine Lim,
but through your loudspeaker media, through the hypnotic eyeballs of your newscasters, and that weather woman who I swear is working voodoo on my teevee screen.
Singapore, what are these lawsuits in my mailbox?
There are so many sheaves, I should have tipped the postman.
Singapore, I assert, you are not a country at all.
Do not raise your voice against me, I am not afraid of your anthem although the lyrics are still bleeding from the bark of my sapless heart.
Not because I sang them pigtailed pinnafored breakfasted chalkshoed in school
But because I used to watch telly till they ran out of shows.
Do not invite me to the podium and tell me to address you properly.
I am allergic to microphones and men in egosuits and pubicwigs.
And I am not a political martyr, I am a patriot who has lost his country and virginity.
Do not wave a cane at me for vandalising your propaganda with technicolour harangues,
Red Nadim semen white Mahsuri menses the colourful language of my eloquent generation.
Your words are like walls on which truth is graffiti.
This has become an island of walls.
Asylum walls, factory walls, school walls, the walls of the midnight Istana.
If I am paranoid I have learnt it from you, O my delicate orchid stalk Singapore,
Always thirsty for water, spooked by armed archipelagoes, always gasping for airspace, always running to keep ahead, running away from yourself.
Singapore why do you wail that way, demanding my IC?
Singapore stop yelling and calling me names.
How dare you call me a chauvinist, an opposition party, a liar,
a traitor, a mendicant professor, a Marxist homosexual communist
pornography banned literature chewing gum liberty smuggler?
How can you say I do not believe in
The Free Press autopsies flogging mudslinging bankruptcy
which are the five pillars of Justice?
And how can you call yourself a country, you terrible hallucination
of highways and cranes and condominiums ten minutes drive from the MRT?

Tell that to the battered housewife who thinks happiness lies at the end of a Toto Queue.
Tell that to the tourist guide whose fillings are pewter whose feelings are iron
whose courtesy is gold whose speech is silver whose handshake is a lethal yank at the jackpot machine.
Tell that to my imam who thinks we are all going to hell.
Tell that to the chao ah beng who has seven stitches a broken collarbone and three dead comrades but who will not hesitate from thrusting his tiger ribcage into another fight
because the lanterns of his lungs have caught their own fire and there is no turning back.
Tell that to the yuppie who sits in meat-markets disguised as pubs, listening to Kenny G disguised as jazz on handphone disguised as conversation and loneliness disguised as a jukebox.
Tell that to all those exiles whose names are forgotten but who leave behind a bad taste in the thoughtful mouth, reminding us that the flapping sunned linen shelters a whiff of chloroform.
Tell that to Town Council men who feed pigeons with crumbs of arsenic.
Tell that to Natra Hertogh a.k.a Maria who proved to us that blood spilled was thicker than water shed as she was caught pining under a stone angel in the nunnery for her husband.
Tell that to Ah Meng, who bore six hairy bastards for our nation.
Tell that to Lee Kuan Yew's squint.
Tell that to Josef Ng, who shaves my infant head amidst a shower of one-cent coins, and both of us are pure again.
Tell that to my Warrant Officer who knew I was faking.
Tell that to the unemployed man who drinks cigarettes smokes tattoos watches peanuts
unself-conscious of his gut belch debts and wife having an affair with the Salesman of Nervous Breakdowns.
Tell that to our Maya Angelou's who are screeching like witches United Nations-style poems populated by Cheena Babi Bayee Tonchet Melayu Malas Keling Geragok Mat Salleh.
Tell that to the fakirs of civil obedience, whose headphones are pounding the hooving basslines of Damyata Damyata Damyata.
Tell that to the statue of Li Po at Marina Park.
Tell that to the performance artists who need licences like drivers and doctors and dogs
when all they really need is just three percent of your love.
Tell that to the innocent faggot looking for kicks on a Sunday evening to end up sucking the bit-hard pistol-muzzle of the CID, ensnared no less by his weakness for pretty boys naked out of uniform.
Tell that to the caretaker of the grave of Radin Mas.
Tell that to Chee Soon Juan's smirk.
Tell that to the pawns of The Upgrading Empire who penetrate their phalluses into heartlands to plant Lego cineplexes Tupperware playgrounds suicidal balconies carnal parks of cardboard and condoms and before we know it we are a colony once again.
Tell that to Malaysia whose Desaru is our spittoon whose TV2 is our amusement whose Bumiputras are our threat whose outrage is our greater outrage whose turtles are weeping blind in the roaring daylight of our cameras.
Tell that to the old poets who have seen this piece of land slip their metaphors each passing year from bumboats to debris to sanitation projects to drowning attempts to barbed neon water weeds on a river with no reflections a long way off from the sea.

O Singapore your fair shores your garlands your GNP.
You are not a country you are a construction from spare parts.
You are not a campaign you are last year's posters.
You are not culture you are poems on the MRT.
You are not a song you are part swear word part lullaby.
You are not Paradise you are an island with pythons.

Singapore I am on trial.
These are the whites of my eyes and the reds of my wrists.
These are the deranged stars of my schizophrenia.
This is the milk latex gummy moon of my sedated smile.
I have lost a country to images, it is as simple as that.
Singapore you have a name on a map but no maps to your name.
This will not do; we must stand aside and let the Lion
crash through a madness of cymbals back to that dark jungle heart
when eyes were still embers waiting for a crownless Prince of Palembang.

I do agree on some points, though some parts I am not sure of its meaning.

2012-01-17T07:02:00.001-08:00

I can't help myself but to fall for you. But I shall not say anything because it might ruin everything we have now.

2012-01-15T17:41:00.002-08:00

Thank you, someone, for bringing me home safely and being my personal assistant .

Sleeping Pill

2012-01-15T17:41:00.001-08:00

If taken outside, it will not only make you sleepy, but kinda kills your image.

2012-01-10T09:32:00.000-08:00

If only I can relive my life since when I was Sec 1....

2012-01-10T09:31:00.000-08:00

Going back to the days.. When I first saw you.. You caught my attention straight away boy, and my heart says you're gonna be in my life forever.

2012-01-09T18:57:00.000-08:00

Today : 5 minute to put on contacts.
10 minute to get out of bed.
10 to bathe.
10 minute daydream.......

No wonder late........

trrrrbrrrrzrrrrr

2012-01-09T11:09:00.001-08:00

I realised that my body is trembling slightly - not because of feeling cold or whatsoever, but due to the fact that I did not have a proper meal at all whole day. Whole day, I only ate a small sandwich in the morning, takoyaki and a quarter cup noodle for whole day. Wow! I must be too busy having fun. =.= No wonder I cannot sleep! poor tummy :(

#9

2012-01-09T09:36:00.000-08:00

CONFESSION #9

I always fear I won't wake up to tomorrow if I sleep.

B-Girl

2012-01-09T09:26:00.000-08:00

I am looking forward for today's lesson and Bboy practice after that~ :D

And I'm counting down the days till Friday cause that's when I am gonna learn SKATE-BOARDING!!!~ WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

LIFE IS GONNA BE AWESOME! ~

A glimpse of the Past

2012-01-09T09:06:00.000-08:00

These past 2 days felt like I was back in 2007/2008. With 2 retarded guys, hanging out and messing around with each other. Well hey! I really felt so happy back then you know.. Those days, I lived life every day to the fullest - no matter if I was going through a bad or good situation. Like, those are my favourite years in secondary school. I did - or rather - we did alot of nonsensical crap and we don't give a shyt what others think. Yeah, I was carefree and all. Atleast I know I have someone around. Haha! Well then, life has its UPs and DOWNs. And now, I feel some sort of revived. I feel like I should be happy and live life to the fullest everyday! LIKE HOW I USED TO! Hey, thanks guys. You know who you are. I love you guys. *BROMANCE* ! HAHAHAH!

See you all around, talk soon <3

Billy LEE & Bobby LIM(& Bunny Wong), TXND ! cause dogs are loyal to their master(me).

short-term list

2012-01-07T00:34:00.000-08:00

I am going to :

1) Enrol for intro hiphop
2) Learn Skate
3) Study for all modules for UT3
4) Buy contacts, shopping.

Actually I feel like there's many more things I should do but well.. I will when I can :)

LET'S GO, HANNNYYYYYYYYYYY!~~~~

A board is all I need.

2012-01-07T00:29:00.000-08:00

YEAY! Finally I am learning a new skill soon,, which is Skateboarding! All thanks to Aniz,, and hanging out with SP skater guys and chicks.. Now I am so excited to learn how to skate! Hhahaaha!~ :DDD

love, again.

2011-12-31T08:32:00.000-08:00

I wish someone will take me by the hand and hold me tight this year and forever~

2011-12-30T10:19:00.001-08:00

I don't like it when you judge about others as if you're so perfect.

2012

2011-12-30T10:11:00.000-08:00

Time flies so fast,
I am grateful I am still alive now and everything that have happened have taught me to be who I am now.
Thanks for the memories and I shall keep it close.

I will be stronger and be better :)

P

2011-12-27T11:46:00.000-08:00

I just love mindfuckery. Fair enough?
I think this is a strong reason. Enough to get me going the 3 years or more.

enlightened

2011-12-26T06:06:00.001-08:00

I found the answer.

Hold up, amber light!

2011-12-25T13:03:00.000-08:00

I am not going to another step further. Because you're only seeing the superficial side of me...

books, humans, and everything

2011-12-25T12:31:00.000-08:00

It's natural that everyone prefers nicer-looking things/people.
But it's due to over obsession of looks that we overlooked something tat is far more important and that is the real quality or character. Be it things or people.
I want to learn, to appreciate the 'inner' rather than the 'outer', though appearance DOES have impact too.

~~~~~ Books, I will try to read you before I judge you by your cover. ~~~~~~~~

ARMS

2011-12-21T07:31:00.000-08:00

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me 'cause I'm already fallingI'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

2011-12-21T07:19:00.000-08:00

It seems that whatever you say was just a joke. Something that you wouldn't remember the next day. Epmty promises. You throw words around like it won't affect me, or others.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I think his is a lesson learnt for me, to stop feeding hope to myself that someday you'll look and realised how much I care.

Piscean

2011-12-17T08:55:00.000-08:00

I am true Piscean.
I need to swim in deep water for some time occasionally.
What a cooling night to swim under the night sky, with a cool breeze.
Weren't many people in the people.
Totally relaxing~

I love tonight :D

Anemophobia

2011-12-13T07:46:00.000-08:00

Anemophobia is : (psychology) Abnormal fear of drafts or winds.

Cycle

2011-12-13T07:39:00.001-08:00

I want to see how long you can last with her.
Cause I doubt no one can ever love you as much as I do.

2011-12-12T23:49:00.000-08:00

New found interest or should I say, a new found passion..?

untitled.

2011-12-12T03:23:00.000-08:00

In life, we cannot expect too much.
Sometimes we just need to be satisfied with what we already have.
Just treasure what's around us, and be happy with the way it is.
We should do more good deeds. Well, atleast try to...
I'm sick of all the shyt that's happening to me now.
It's just, I want to go somewhere calm and rest.
And think of nothing but just enjoy the moment, in peace.

2011-12-11T20:57:00.000-08:00

Can I escape to the beach now?

escapism

2011-12-11T20:51:00.000-08:00

I want to have a short get-away from Singapore..
Feel like going JB for a short, fun day trip.. :D

#9 Confession

2011-12-11T08:26:00.000-08:00

I just wish one day you'll regret you lost someone like me.

You.

2011-12-11T08:21:00.000-08:00

I am going to erase this love for you.
I must move on, else I'll always be in pain.
Though I must let go of all sweeteness and warmness I get from you.
I'm afraid to admit that they were all beautiful lies you create - unintentionally or intentionally.

Get Out of my heart.
Get Out. Get Out..

Eclipse, of my life

2011-12-11T07:52:00.000-08:00

My life is going through the eclipse process of which I should hide for a moment and shine out again with a brand new me.

God, I fear you.

2011-12-10T07:08:00.000-08:00

Time to heal.
Can I really heal.. without you?
God, please guide me.
I feel so lost and empty.
Nothing seems right..,
what's happening next? I don't know.
But I am going to try and pick myself up.
I am gonna be stronger.

Lost & UNfound.

2011-12-10T07:07:00.000-08:00

Lost my iPhone 4.
Lost you.

Now what..?

2011-12-07T08:57:00.001-08:00

Boy, when you said those words, I swear my heart melted and I stunned for a moment. But then again, that's what best friends do - that's what they're for.

2011-12-07T08:55:00.001-08:00

I have to admit it's sad someone whom you used to talk to all the time becaomes someone who you talk to at times, and with limits..

Worst is, when I miss someone and I can't call them.

2011-12-03T08:58:00.000-08:00

The feeling when, that person makes you feel good and precious -- but that person is just being sweet naturally, it's their character... they treat everyone like that. But then, you kinda feel like you're special to them.

Overworked body, Happy mind.

2011-12-03T08:49:00.000-08:00

Was late to work due to jam on highway~
Wasn't a good start at work but things got better with EVIL people,, haha kidding! funny colleagues at work.. GOSH! eventful rather entertaining day at work despite the back aches(due to dancing and working) and my feet were killing me! >.<
Well, what I can say is it doesn't matter how hard your job is, its about who goes through them with you that matters most, at least to me :)

Rained throughout the night makes me feel so cold~ And lonely~
Ah well, someone made my day today. Thank you, you!~~~~ ^^

And, I gotta say, I love my parents and thank you so much for all you've done for me. I don't shot it, but I am grateful to you both.

I love everyone ^^
<3

$$$

2011-11-24T06:03:00.000-08:00

Let's start saving money.

#8

2011-11-24T05:19:00.000-08:00

Confeesion #8

I shaved my back hair in the shape of 'HEART' because I want to show you that I love you.

Daily Confession

2011-11-21T23:52:00.000-08:00

CONFESSION #7

I HOPE THAT YOU WOULD SUFFER LIKE HOW I DID, EVERY SINGLE BIT OF THE REAL AGONY. But then again, I don't think you would learnt from it anyway.

Daily Confession #6

2011-11-18T07:16:00.000-08:00

So, Daily Confession for today...

CONFESSION #6

For some unknown reason, I always wished/felt that I'm my parent's adopted child.

Appreciation Award Winners

2011-11-18T07:05:00.000-08:00

I have been thinking alot these few days and throughout these few monhts I have faced with tough challenges and I want to express my deep appreciation and gratefulness to 3 AWESOME PEOPLE that are always supporting me, by my side. ^^

EZZATI <3

LESLIE! <3

WEI EN <3

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE.

With Love,
HANNY {!}

2011-11-17T08:09:00.000-08:00

Confession #5 .
I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE A VERY GOOD FIGHTER.

2011-11-17T08:03:00.000-08:00

Everyone around me is working hard towards their goal.. But what am I doing ? What am I doing? What am I trying to prove? Arts industry or Psychology still.?

pop it in

2011-11-16T08:00:00.000-08:00

Second sleeping pill -- still not effective.

ambition or just a dream?

2011-11-16T07:43:00.000-08:00

Confession #4

I want to be a Prosecutor. But given by the rate that I'm going now, it is impossible~ :(

Hold your horses, Young Man

2011-11-15T09:04:00.000-08:00

I don't wanne be a victim of your false hope and misleading actions of kindness and care towards me. Stop it now, cause I keep falling deeper and deeper into the pit of love.

fallen

2011-11-15T08:57:00.000-08:00

Confession #3

I cheated ONCE when I was in relationship, but it was unintentional and I regret it.

#Daily Confession

2011-11-13T22:34:00.001-08:00

Okay so confession #2...

I don't say or show it.

But I REALLY LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS. <3

Lifespan of a Balloon

2011-11-13T12:00:00.001-08:00

Just randomly hearing Cindy's songs... And I really find this sentence, suits how I feel right now..

~~~~~~~~~~~~ 不要说你爱我，想念我，如果你的心脏没有这样做。 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2011-11-13T07:10:00.001-08:00

Before it's too late, I am gonna start making confessions.

Confession for the day..,

I REALLY MISS THE DAYS DURING SEC 2, ALWAYS HANGING OUT WITH MY BROTHERS -- LESLIE, WEI EN, KIMYEW. THAT WAS THE HAPPIEST DAYS OF MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE...

Counting Down..

2011-11-13T07:07:00.000-08:00

Just when I thought I'm starting on a New Beginning.. I just realised it is coming to an end, ALL OF IT, US. Why am I so disturbed unlike the others? Why can't I just move on and enjoy my life while I'm still here? Why am I worrying over something that it's beyond my, or evryone else's limit? It's inevitable.

DOPE

2011-10-21T09:49:00.000-07:00

Haunted House was very anti-climax. D;

Halloween Party in da Spin City waz ze awesomeness! Had so much passion and energy that I just exploded on the dancefloor with Fiqfiq,, thanks for being such a great partner accompanying me around and lending me a listening ear.. ^^ Fun teaching dougie to the cute boyz and Exxa and Anna,, you women gotta bring sexyback next time yeahhh! OMG,, WHOLE LOTS OF FUN AND ENTERTAINMENT. Glad that I came, for that moment I felt nothing but happiness :)

Walking through the busy streets

2011-10-19T22:06:00.000-07:00

The difference between a compassionate person and others is that,, given a situation when one see others in trouble, they will sympathize them, feel pity for them and continue walking -- but a compassionate person will stop and lend them a hand.

Make A Wish

2011-10-19T08:20:00.000-07:00

I don't believe in making a wish when spotting 11:11 ,,
But this time, I wished I can see you now .